When I returned home from a trip to New Zealand at the end of February, where I’d just left my man and not knowing when I would see him again, feeling very unsure about what my next career move was going to be or how long this period of unemployment was going to last, I felt the need for some self-care. I know myself well enough now to know that if I’m going through a time of uncertainty, there’s a good chance my mental health is going to slide down a little. To begin to combat this from the outset, I began taking a yoga course on YouTube led by the delightfully positive and encouraging Adrienne. During a couple of the lessons, she’s said the phrase ‘root to rise’, referring to the act of having a steady base and a strong core in order to stand up tall and balanced, to feel strong and sure.
Root to Rise.
I feel that this is a key action for me at the moment. Being unemployed, being turned down an unknown number of times, can really begin to take its toll on your mental, emotional, and even physical health. You can begin to lose who you are, what you’re working towards, what your dream is, all in a cloud of countless job adverts, confusion and self-doubt. The practice of yoga, of getting back in touch with who you really are, for just 30 minutes a day has worked wonders. Ok, it’s not a magical cure, and I admit I haven’t done it everyday, but when I do I don’t regret it.
What’s the next move? I’m going to root and rise, baby. A good friend said to me “I like to think there’s not too much more of my character that needs building…and then I have a shitty situation and realise I could probably do a little more work on myself”, so this is the time to work on myself a little more. Go back to the beginning, ask myself some questions about what I want to do and who I want to be. The positive spin on this time is that things can only go up from here, right?
As Sheryl Sandberg said, “when life sucks you under, you can kick against the bottom, break the surface, and breathe again. I learned that…in the face of any challenge, you can choose joy and meaning.”
So here I am, choosing joy and meaning; kicking against the bottom to rise again.